I don't know what I am: Reprise

In a moment of weakness or insecurity or extreme-open-bookedness (yeah, I know, that's not a word), I posted the original "I don't know what I am" post.  Then, that evening, as I opened up my book to do my Bible study homework from Beth Moore's Beloved Disciple, wouldn't you know, my dear friend Beth asked us to do a little self-examination.  As a baseline for our present perceived identity, at the beginning of the study, she had us write in our workbook Who You've Discovered You Aren't and Who You've Discovered You Are.

Isn't it funny how God puts these things on our heart first, and then right in our face next?

Everyone on earth fills a variety of unique roles.  Me?  I'm a wife, mother, daughter, sister, aunt, grand-daughter. At various points in my life I've been single, a girlfriend, and a married woman, working full-time, working part-time, staying-at-home, a student.  I'm a picker.  I'm a grinner.  I'm a lover.  And I'm a sinner. 

Sometimes...I'm a joker. 

Some days, when my guard is down and I'm feeling especially insecure (and it doesn't help if I'm hormonal and pregnant on top of that), Satan gets a foothold and pushes me down.  On those days, thanks to my dear friend Beth's biblical wisdom, I have learned to remember John the Baptist.

He was a man who knew who he was.

I am not the Christ. John 1:20

And who he wasn't. 

I am the voice of one calling in the desert, "Make straight the way for the Lord".  John 1:23  (ref Isaiah 40:3)

He knew his position compared to Christ.

He is the one who comes after me, the thongs of whose sandals I am not worthy to untie.  John 1:27

Yet, on that note, and I underlined this straight from my workbook - 

"He understood Christ's greatness and how unworthy he as in comparison, but he didn't see himself as having the value of an inchworm under a rock.  His life had value through its connection to Christ." ~Beth Moore

As life goes on, I think it will become abundantly clear to me that trivial things like whether I'm labeled "homemaker" or "engineer" will become less important to me when I put the immeasurable value I have due to my relationship with Jesus at the front and center.  

Self-esteem, schmelf-esteem.  I've got Jesus.  And He is security.  

How about you?